May 2013
3 posts
the very last thing
i thought everything was fine, really fine until some douche got in the way. she just got out of her relationship and yet shes about to go through another one. i thought time was something i have to build up; giving her time to recover, perhaps more than a couple of months… apparently that didnt happen. right when this happened, things were not the same anymore. i really wanted a chance,...
One last time
I thought it was alright, really. From the day eveything started to come back, the day I come to another dead end. It hurts to see someone that means a lot to you, with someone else. I guess I’ll give it another will, another try till the end before I say goodbye. You know I have feelings, putting the time and effort for you yet I’ve done nothing but to forgive and understand while you...
everything is starting to turn into a reality, i wish i was more prepared for this
April 2013
1 post
might as well write this
the day has finally come, to where an opportunity is starting to build up. it was so unexpected that it came really fast but i have to play it right. although, there isnt much competition going on but i still have to try, just to show her how much she means to me. ive been taking advices here and there to find my point and i thank my best friends to lend me a hand with this. i feel such a noob at...
March 2013
4 posts
changes from the last 4 years
i honestly thought that i would never changed from what i was four years ago and now. even had that state of mind that i wouldnt be able to, but hanging out from the same people now, made a huge spark that i definitely did. physically but mentally as well. history repeat itself with the same girl that approached to my life 5 years ago and now came back, knowing that i was completely over her after...
whether to open a new chapter
never thought ill realized that ive been going on the same chapter over and over for the longest time, like taking the longest break while reading. i keep telling myself go with the flow or plan a goal to reach it. honestly, its like writing a story from day one as i first met her. as i write down all the memories i had when she was still around, no matter what, i couldnt find the right words to...
i know youll be in a slump for awhile
but youll know im always there during anytime you need a person or without.. i just wish it was a better environment to make a move than playing the waiting game
the chances are impossible
but i know i can do this. just need to play it right
February 2013
2 posts
Enjoyable night
Amazingly I saw atb for the first time and his music was the shit. I just wished people made better planning to meet up.
Everything has changed so much to this point where, what am i doing that is repeating history five years ago? Yet again, I find myself going for the impossible girl and putting all this effort, just to get her attention. I’m not trying to repeat everything 100%, I’m trying to be a grown person that is looking what someone out there. Few say I’m young to relax more but in all...
January 2013
4 posts
if you realized it
you hurt me badly, just by saying you have to cancel our plans to hangout. i was looking forward to it and fixing your car. i did not expect for you to do that, not from a wonderful person like you. a buddie told me i should give the cold shoulder. for one thing, i cant do it, because i know you have an explanation and you mean something to me than those that are heartless. youll probably know...
i often wonder if there is a cure to miss someone
- there is
- its to see someone that you love
what if you cant?
in time, the pain fades, leaving behind happy memories
- Inspector Wing, New Police Story
Why does it hurt so much
Who is it calling out to? I never felt this way before, my heart is just calling out so much for the past few days
idk
havent been posting anything in awhile so just wanna say happy late 2013 to every tumblr user out there. ill start off as a refreshing start of the year but no new years resolution, never fullfilled that anyway. im still struggling on what i want, i thought i did, as a hvac service tech but hearing what my service director said to me. it makes more sense to enjoy what i wanted to do in the first...
December 2012
1 post
finals
good luck for the college students for their last week. make it rain!
November 2012
3 posts
got shit at work now
im working my way up to be successful, not dealing with assholes that wanna bring me down for horseplaying. from my understanding, you didnt bother to be a real person and tell me straight up that its wrong. but instead, it was reported to the HR department. i got people to back me up including the gsm, and all i need is the GM to understand and tables are gonna fucking turn. just watch it...
whatever
i wish i knew how much you turned into a faggot when you dont think i ‘pushed’ as being a friend to your point of view.
one day without any bitchin' going on
you want me to go to school and you want me to get a job and yet youre no good at time. time is everything. you always think i have no life but i do so live with it or i have to tell you straight up that you need a chill pill
October 2012
2 posts
I'll be honest
There are some who are better than me. I can’t seem to grab a girls attention better than other guys, which I’ll admit to. It’s the matter of feeling the rejection and thinking about what to say and in the end, is only the same thing. Giving up or letting go. i’m only absorbing the information and experience since my last true relationship till now.
a month ago
its either vegas or formula d round 7 during this weekend.. i choose vegas and had no ride so decided to go to formula d.. sold out tickets. theres always next year
September 2012
10 posts
every moment is a story
how am i supposed to tell a story about this? id really have to figure out something but she can be the thesis i guess.
i was told that if i can type out a story, like to pursue her then maybe things will work out as i expected.(not really). i am at the bottom of the barrel as far as im concerned, my last attempt was litterally the worse thing in the world but it wasnt the end for me. fuck with...
fuck life lol
i wanna change everything to a whole new person. i wanna put a new part of me to show what i can do. i dont wanna be all technical with cars and boring shit. i wanna come up with a conversational talk with anyone, not just cute chicks but with everyone around me. after highschool, college never changed me. i ended up being conservative at times but now im trying to fix all that. adding some things...
had to post this
i was litterally have girl problems.. like i was a complete newbie for 5-6 years of wasting the wrong time and now im trying to figure out as i play this. i have to think my way through this so i wont fuck up. i got so many tips and advice, it helped but applying is like someone just zip my mouth up. i gotta enjoy it, loosen up and show what i am to her. really, there are a lot more out there but...
idk what it is
but it just hit me pretty hard or maybe im not living the life that i always wanted
No sleep, stressed so ill vent here (if it will...
Honestly, i’m with the same people since high scohool and i’m glad that we’re still close but now, i’m not sure anymore.I feel like I got thrown out and seriously got replaced with someone else. Idk why it just hit me but I just feel like I can’t be good enough for them. I try not to do anything stupid but one of them really pissed me off. The way things are,I wanna...
sometimes, you get smartasses in your life
unless your name is google, i suggest that you shut the hell up
August 2012
12 posts
This close
Of fucking leaving you… Do whatever makes you happy. I don’t want to waste my time on someone who doesn’t put the time. So close… But i’m gonna wait
sleepless night
24 hour awakeness, yosh!
work kinda sucks today
hearing about something that i didnt wanna hear, almost went downhill, drove around costa mesa to get my mind off of things and little prank from the sales department lol
life just sucks, only because i was stupid enough to not understand. one year was rough, aside from school, just finding that someone that could make my life better and easier. for something that i stop believing in, i still...
whatever life takes me
with the life i have now, i had to give quite a few things to understand and handle responsibility for the future but now that i thought about it. i miss my old life so much. just chilling with friends and family, living on financial aid lmao and many stuff more but most importantly on something that will keep my happiness for a while. i lost the drive, the motivation because i fucked up with time...
July 2012
7 posts
if i keep this up with work
then ill end up losing my chance with her or actually i already did but i somehow keep going
my priorities
i know i make mistakes, im not perfect but i wanna make things right and something better for my life, but now its not the time anymore. i redeemed myself from school, which im happy about but the life ive been wanting, hasnt come around yet. i tried but now im still trying. im not leaving empty handed, which some cases i do. althought i see cuties everywhere, but it doesnt get my interest. ill be...
much love
as much as i consider you as a close friend, im really gonna pull out all the stops if you dont pay me back or find a way to. i know you owe people shit ton of money but i aint letting this go
what's next
i have absolutely no idea of whats next. i just wanna get my school life over with and start on my hvac career. right now, i don’t care about having a love life or anything that is related. i blew up my last attempt and gonna give it another shot, most likely, it wont turn to be good or bad. i have to see. this whole year was a huge redemption of my mistakes. i did what i had to do...
June 2012
32 posts
Watchgene-kay:
selawa:
Baby gets her father into the crib and keeps him there. This is absolutely beautiful! warms my heart❤
where can i find such a man blacksingles.com??
dont care what people say. i used to take care of my sister like this and now shes grown. damn five years has been very fast
